My Fear of Math

I’m always doing work on myself. I have read reams of self-help books, attended seminars, bought cassette tape programs and CDs (remember those?), had a stint with Dianetics and Scientology, the Landmark Forum, you name it. My last seminar was Unleash the Power Within with Tony Robbins.

Addicted? Maybe. But I always feel there’s room for improvement.

Over the years, I’ve explored meditation and uncovering hidden blocks that affect how I operate in this world.

So I was experimenting (in my head) with things that made me uncomfortable.

One of them was math.

I told myself, “Math is an easy subject, and I can work out problems in my head.”

Immediately I felt a bunch of resistance.

Then something else came up.

I used to do math problems in my head with no trouble. But I remembered a grade school teacher who “wanted to see my work.”

I told him, “What does it matter? I got the right answer; I did it in my head.”

This teacher insisted I show my work, and I did not see the logic behind it. It was stupid and slowed me down.

I started getting failing grades because I couldn’t show my work.

So at some point, I gave up and said, “MATH IS STUPID.”

Fast forward years later, and I’m doing everything I can to avoid taking classes related to math.

So much so that when I decided to start chiropractic school, I was lacking math credits. I was delayed a few quarters because I needed the math credits before I started chiropractic college.

All because a silly math teacher didn’t recognize that I might have had a natural ability for it—and instead of nurturing it, he made me hate it.

Here’s the thing: I told myself for many years that I wasn’t good at math.

That was just the way I saw myself.

I was wrong.

I still have no desire to go solve equations or stuff like that. Maybe that ship has sailed. I won’t be Einstein scrawling complex equations on a chalkboard.

BUT WHAT IF?

WHAT LIES ARE YOU TELLING YOURSELF ABOUT YOURSELF?

Live Long and Prosper.

-Dan